i feel so crappy. i started off with a great day. went to the park with romany, had a nice walk and everything. got home and i was rather disapointed i hadn't tanned but i was glad i hadn't burnt. then a couple of hours later i realised that i my sunburn had actually come out. so now its stinging like a mother bitch. but thats the least of my problems. my real mum, michelle just told me that her long term boyfriend martin has dumped her. it's really upset me, what happened to the plans he'd made? i thought he truly loved her and would never hurt her. but he just kicked her out and now she's living on her own some place. i can't bear to see her like this, i want her to move in with me. but i know she won't do it with the past and all. i really hate martin, like really hate him. why would he hurt her like this? i know i'm no where near mature enough to understand this stuff but i just dont get how someone can fall out of love. they must not've loved them in the first place. he told me he loved her, than he would never hurt her. he fucking lied to me. why? why can't he try? what happened to my baby brother or sister? goddddd i hate him.

Hey there! It's 11:14 and I'm getting ready for the day ahead. I'm about to dry my hair, pop on some clothes & cake on the makeup. Uhhh, I really cba. The only reason I'm doing this is because I'm sleeping at Romany's house tonight. Otherwise I really wouldn't bother. Mum keeps nagging me about getting ready, getting off the goddamn laptop but I need to write this. I'm so thirsty and I've uncovered a new found love for Cute is what we aim for. They're pretty funky tbh, have a listen on youtube or something. Risque + Curse of the curves are best methinks. Anyway I'm going to go, busy day ahead right. Thankyou diary, thankyou for listening.

Cute huh? Stumbled across it earlier and I thought it was so sweet. Oh gosh my days not been too great. Slight friendship hiccup, I'm ill & now I cant sleep. I tried earlier but I just can't. So I'm just laid in bed, listening to my music and I keep sneezing. I'm going to try to go back to sleep soon, and if i don't then I'll have to take a sleeping pill or something because I have to be up at 10am. I've realised just how much some lyrics have in common with my life right now. I listened to perfect - simple plan and it made me realise that I'm not alone with how I feel. It goes;

"Nothings gonna change the things that you said. Nothings gonna make this right again. Please don't turn your back. I can't believe, it's hard just to talk to you. But you don't understand, cause we lost it all. Nothing lasts forever. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect Now it just too late and we can't go back. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect."

Okay I'm going to go now, I'm so very tired. Can't wait for the morning, I'm sleeping at Romany's. Thank you diary, thank you for listening.